Friday, 16 April 2010
♥ It Hurts In My Heart
Well just wanna post this for myself
"spit it out and forget them"
Thats why my bloggie here to be..
I dun care whether anyone of you will criticise me but i hope pls dun mention when you meet me
i thank you 1st...
It doesn't have the correct or false statement so (only read)
My dear closed friends around me.....you know my feelings
Just dun comment anything
It hurts me! It really hurts but what can i do?
as an embassador of god i can't sin to god by doing sins toward them
but can only see them fly away
never tried to felt to 1 girl except her....there's many girls....but my heart choose her
why? maybe she touch my heart?
I try to touch but i failed to touch her heart
why? maybe i dun have a good look? money? heart? Or just a matter of Fate?
Maybe Im in TVB drama.... acting some weird love case
it goes like this.....
me and her were normal friend just that i tried to get close to her
as she is avaiable nothing much asking her to hang out....
hmm... so coinsidencely meeting in some where and inviting him to join me and her
he knew her on that day along with me...
In one day happens to be the purposed day from me to her....
some how dunno whether he had done anything
for me, im being refused, but for him is accepted...
just in one face in one day.....
im speechless as in face in oneday can happen but not for year days with her
ok? here's the question...
should i blame my self for bringing him to her?
should i go and ask why?
Its all too late.....
It really hurts me when i get this news....
i don't even want to believe it until my eye's caught it
until that day.... the feeling of her with me have gone....
so i pretend to be normal better than those days we had
when it happens.....
phew you'll never feel this until you really are
it's like the thorns of heart piercing your heart
Not even pain killers can cure the wound but god's word
everytime i feel for her the thorns will pierce me and what could i do?
cry?
slap myself?
knock myself to the wall?
some sharp items to hurt myself?
Go flat and jump down from 50th floor?
All this was my thinking from drama but god enlightens me
for him who had die for me and i shall not die for her but to continue love her..
Jesus love us and jesus told us to love others
So for this i wake up from suffering but still the thorns are inside
it will hurts when i saw them.... feel pain for it!!
i can't say anything anymore but just continue my life perfectly as possible as i can
But what can't change is my love for her! never!
placed her in 3rd placing as 1st is God and 2nd is my family 4th...my friends
never change for her except she change her self to oppose...
the 2 of them are going into the college im going along....
so pray for me that the thorns will not hurt me and affect my studies
will be facing them everyday as we are staying in hostel in next to each other...
i hope i can blind my eyes
Now For Him:
i know what kind of person you are...and now she is with you. I hope that you can bring an everlasting to her...don't let me know you had anywrong to her for i shall always protect her although i can't be with her...treat him more better than me....
For Her:
Nvm although it hurts, just that its hurt from your thorns you have given me
but my love never chnage for you...as i love everyone more you are special one
will never change until another person have touch my heart.Hope you are very very hung fuk with him but not sadness
I dare myself with all these words i have given out that i won't regret this for i still stand the words
I can wait until you can hold your hands to me
11:56 pm
Thursday, 15 April 2010
♥ Happie Birthday Kin Ken
Just came back from kin ken's birthday celebration
Overall its been recover back our gang
We have lots of fun together but stiill shy in the camera haha
Went for Da kei with Jia qi and Shiao Wenn and ken
played 2 round of L4D and i cant cont as i sick of it
oh ya have a match of dota with my gang
seriously my skills improved but not pro haha still sin wai pro.
Maybe its really the matter of ......(i'll tell you later in other post)
Its feel like our gang spirit is back but still a little awkward lo
i really really wanted to stand for it
Love you guys
sin hong,kelvin goon,kok yan,theam aun,kin ken,wai foong,calvin choong
These are the best buddy i ever meet in my life....They are just like my rainbow Thx God
Of coz not less the other 1 who is sin wai haha who always bully me ^_^
later on we will seperate dy as some go college some go form 6
i hope that when we have holiday we can come back in a gang
coming on next.....
going to have a camp in BB
continue serving BB is sergeant rank
getting ready going into college
post something that i dun care being criticise by others(tmr)
changing his characteristics
time to flame back on the fire Lev 6:8-13
rest to stand back up again to fight to survive...
Overall its been recover back our gang
We have lots of fun together but stiill shy in the camera haha
Went for Da kei with Jia qi and Shiao Wenn and ken
played 2 round of L4D and i cant cont as i sick of it
oh ya have a match of dota with my gang
seriously my skills improved but not pro haha still sin wai pro.
Maybe its really the matter of ......(i'll tell you later in other post)
Its feel like our gang spirit is back but still a little awkward lo
i really really wanted to stand for it
Love you guys
sin hong,kelvin goon,kok yan,theam aun,kin ken,wai foong,calvin choong
These are the best buddy i ever meet in my life....They are just like my rainbow Thx God
Of coz not less the other 1 who is sin wai haha who always bully me ^_^
later on we will seperate dy as some go college some go form 6
i hope that when we have holiday we can come back in a gang
coming on next.....
going to have a camp in BB
continue serving BB is sergeant rank
getting ready going into college
post something that i dun care being criticise by others(tmr)
changing his characteristics
time to flame back on the fire Lev 6:8-13
rest to stand back up again to fight to survive...
11:56 pm
♥ New Laptop
Hehe
My dad sent me a laptop from oversea
Its ACER Aspire 5735z not very new brand but new com
Thx daddy always love ya... ^_^
Its been few years daddy haven't come back to m'sia miss him a lot but he'll be back soon
come to another part....
this few day kena sakit kepala
tak tahu kenapa
maybe busy with all the thinkings and thoughts
Hmm.....
thinking what ne???
thinking how to spent my days until college starts...
thinking my subject are hard or easy
thinking of missing those friends who care for me ^_^
gosh! stop stop thinking le i going mad liao
Orh ya my didi joined BB, I mean my reall didi haha
He joined in 1st Kluang comapany in SMK Taman Kluang Barat
Gotta make for him an uniform and giv him the knowledge of BB
Then....
Tomorrow gonna celebrate ken's birthday ^_^
Hope everything will be fine as i planned haizzzz (headache lerr)
And he's becoming my new roommate at the college
Hope we dun argue seriously by argue like chicken and duck haha
Oh ya im becoming sergeant in BB luuu.....
but dunno wanna sergeant rank or staff sergeant rank
as if im out of school sergeant rank should not given me as im out of da school dy
so thinking seriously now whether which is better, as staff sergeant duty is not easy like kacang putih....
Pls make some painkillers that can be used effectively
" painkillers!!!!! pls kill the pain of my Head and my Heart, It very hurts"
My friend told me this
"God doesn't know painkillers but God knows your hearts and your words"
My dad sent me a laptop from oversea
Its ACER Aspire 5735z not very new brand but new com
Thx daddy always love ya... ^_^
Its been few years daddy haven't come back to m'sia miss him a lot but he'll be back soon
come to another part....
this few day kena sakit kepala
tak tahu kenapa
maybe busy with all the thinkings and thoughts
Hmm.....
thinking what ne???
thinking how to spent my days until college starts...
thinking my subject are hard or easy
thinking of missing those friends who care for me ^_^
gosh! stop stop thinking le i going mad liao
Orh ya my didi joined BB, I mean my reall didi haha
He joined in 1st Kluang comapany in SMK Taman Kluang Barat
Gotta make for him an uniform and giv him the knowledge of BB
Then....
Tomorrow gonna celebrate ken's birthday ^_^
Hope everything will be fine as i planned haizzzz (headache lerr)
And he's becoming my new roommate at the college
Hope we dun argue seriously by argue like chicken and duck haha
Oh ya im becoming sergeant in BB luuu.....
but dunno wanna sergeant rank or staff sergeant rank
as if im out of school sergeant rank should not given me as im out of da school dy
so thinking seriously now whether which is better, as staff sergeant duty is not easy like kacang putih....
Pls make some painkillers that can be used effectively
" painkillers!!!!! pls kill the pain of my Head and my Heart, It very hurts"
My friend told me this
"God doesn't know painkillers but God knows your hearts and your words"
Pray For It
12:12 am
Monday, 12 April 2010
♥ Mgs Pesta Ria
Yesterday is 10th of April
went to pesta ria to meet up all the old friends even boys
many people went there
some of amc school friends also went to enjoy
I went there without any coupons
just ask some friends to lend from them and pay them back
din't play any games there but only accompany them and had some drinks only
Din't play games maybe because those game are too lame for me in the age of 18 gua
i dunno but i just don't feel like playing them
drinks were easily sold out as the weather is so hot and the place is so crowded
spent the whole morning there looking at them painting their nails for fun
selepas itu
go to jusco with jia and step and ken by ken's car
stop by at kopitiam to have lunch
and then meet up with grace and shiao wenn
then go jalan jalan sama sama le....
suddenly pui yuei called up and said she joining us for kai kai
then ok lo wait her and teman her to take lunch as i take it as 2nd round
then jalan jalan with her
and last stop at infinity cc to da kei ~
pui yuei's eye pain so she sit and look and we end there around 5 pm
Overall its another great day with friends hanging out together
thanks to the lord that i can knew all this friends in my life ^_^
went to pesta ria to meet up all the old friends even boys
many people went there
some of amc school friends also went to enjoy
I went there without any coupons
just ask some friends to lend from them and pay them back
din't play any games there but only accompany them and had some drinks only
Din't play games maybe because those game are too lame for me in the age of 18 gua
i dunno but i just don't feel like playing them
drinks were easily sold out as the weather is so hot and the place is so crowded
spent the whole morning there looking at them painting their nails for fun
selepas itu
go to jusco with jia and step and ken by ken's car
stop by at kopitiam to have lunch
and then meet up with grace and shiao wenn
then go jalan jalan sama sama le....
suddenly pui yuei called up and said she joining us for kai kai
then ok lo wait her and teman her to take lunch as i take it as 2nd round
then jalan jalan with her
and last stop at infinity cc to da kei ~
pui yuei's eye pain so she sit and look and we end there around 5 pm
Overall its another great day with friends hanging out together
thanks to the lord that i can knew all this friends in my life ^_^
1:17 am
Saturday, 3 April 2010
♥ Getting started
Wait and wait and wait...
Finally today,
slept until 10a.m. only wake up and head for breakfast
around 11am postman came to my house and drop 2 important things
1st....surat pengecualian kemasukan PLKN
2nd....admission to UTAR
1st i look at the PLKN and it written
Kami telah menerima surat anda pada......pengecalian anda diterima
2nd then the admission form from UTAR
=) happy to see this letter as i waited for few week time
straight i open the letter and 1st paper was written "The Fees"
for the 1st sem i need to pay rm2809.00
wow its cost so much
duh.... felt sad for my money then....=(
then went out to town to buy some stuff for the advanced drill course
around 6 went to pasar malam to help out at aunt shop
then end 10 pm to MYC to meet edwin and chee khoon for the course
and now im blogging at MYC using Mikael's newly laptop haha
Will be staying night at MYC tonight haha
will be sleeping now..bye..
UTAR is another new life for me =)
Finally today,
slept until 10a.m. only wake up and head for breakfast
around 11am postman came to my house and drop 2 important things
1st....surat pengecualian kemasukan PLKN
2nd....admission to UTAR
1st i look at the PLKN and it written
Kami telah menerima surat anda pada......pengecalian anda diterima
2nd then the admission form from UTAR
=) happy to see this letter as i waited for few week time
straight i open the letter and 1st paper was written "The Fees"
for the 1st sem i need to pay rm2809.00
wow its cost so much
duh.... felt sad for my money then....=(
then went out to town to buy some stuff for the advanced drill course
around 6 went to pasar malam to help out at aunt shop
then end 10 pm to MYC to meet edwin and chee khoon for the course
and now im blogging at MYC using Mikael's newly laptop haha
Will be staying night at MYC tonight haha
will be sleeping now..bye..
UTAR is another new life for me =)
12:39 am
